what should i do

i am a Muslim and i had married a lady from different counrty (she was buddhist) after converting her to islam.
from the earlier after the merriage she was unfair in life but i could live on with that. we have a child (girl-age 5 years above.
since beginning she never let me be confident that i am married and imy wife loves me.
i tried every thing to put thing in a proper way so our life can be normal.
in good days also she insulted me always. her biggest problem is doubting.
i use to call her from my office before leaving in the evening and withing 10 minutes of my call i will reach home but she always doubted me.
some how i was living this life. and trying to settle things.
since past three years our communication became less and less untill it reached a point that we live in the same house, sleep in the same bed watch tv in the same room but no communication. i spoke to her so many times, i cried infact infront of her to let us solve this problem.
i would add this that since more then thre years she have a lawyer and she is consulting ebery single word to do with her lawyer.
last year when things get out of way she made me so frustrated that i slaped her. (reason of that is that she came to the door in her inner dress only) so as a human and musalim what should i could do. i ask her to go in but nothing.
right after that she called her brother and she went to police station and put up a complaint against me. the case went to the court definitely she won it - because no one looks at the reasons of things like this, they only see he slaped her or no, without knowing the results after that decision. i had paid the penalty but the plans was some thing else. they took the copy of that decission and put up a case again for asking divorce as she is insecure with me in the house (please note that we lived in the same house even after that upto 8 months)
in the court she says she is insecure but she lives in the house with me and i provided every thing i could thinking may be things can change and she will be ok.
as a result i lost it again because every mind in this world thinks and believe that women is the most innocent creature on this planet. i agree but not all.
she won
divorce
child custody
child support
her passport.
after all this she does not allow e to see my child so i have requested the court for a time programme.
but still she is always trying to find ways of troubling me like now she is putting another case on me that the child support is not enough.
please note - monthly salary of one full time housemaid is 60\- and i am paying 70/- (as a whole, that includes- food, accommodation, health, and every thing means for life) for a 5 years child whitch is 50% of my total income. moreover i buy clothes, toys, shoes, etc as she is my daughter.
she was never a good wife.
she know that the daughter is my biggest weakness. so she is playing with me through my daughter.
kindly advise me what should i do please.

hussain 14 Apr 2009, 10:52 - Report